Maybe I'm Dreaming

I'll be waiting.

2012-02-12T02:56:00.001+08:00

Is it too late?

2012-02-12T02:55:00.000+08:00

There’s so many wars we fought,
There’s so many things we’re not,
But with what we have,
I promise you that,
I will never let you go.

2012-01-30T18:06:00.002+08:00

I never really wanted anything extraordinary in life. Maybe just enough money to live comfortably
Settle down and lead life like every other normal people does. Am I not capable of that?
Am I that bad that i am denied of everything a normal person could have?

I always hope all my problems won't affect anything. How wrong.
It affects every freaking thing. I just want to love and be loved like every other people. Is that too much to ask for?

Dear fragil heart, are you toying with me? You messing with my life?
Oh lord I am lost and confuse. Tell me what is going on. Please.

I saw you.

2011-10-27T02:51:00.002+08:00

It was that moment when I saw you, in Robin Scherbatsky.
I can't believe I am saying this. I thought I.. ah nvm bye it is.

Life of a -

2011-08-08T01:40:00.002+08:00

I never had the courage to tell the people I loved the most how I really felt.
The 2 people I've really loved, they never had the chance to know how I felt.
Now, the both of them moved on. And here I am haunted by those unsaid emotions. what a pain. Yet I still have to act like nothing is wrong and we are still close friends.
I hate how my esteem gets in the way. Why am I not born smart/handsome/hot/attractive but a guy who sucks at everything he does. esteem oh esteem, please, go away.

I thought I've long forgotten you.

2011-06-26T02:58:00.002+08:00

It's has been so long. I thought it was over and I did it and here I am thinking about you. I am pretty damn sure that you are the paste tense. Wait, nothing happened between us but here I am missing everything we did together. Did I take that friendship too much or were you misleading me all along? I hope for none. All I can dream of is to see sparks between us but hah its a dream after all. Idealistic much. Why in the world am I still hoping for something to happen? This pathetic hope within is killing me.

Hi.

2011-05-28T19:09:00.001+08:00

I am all good for now ^_^

I've got another confession to make.

2011-04-26T08:06:00.003+08:00

Are you gone and onto someone new?
I needed somewhere to hang my head, without your noose.
You gave me something that I didn't have, but had no use.
I was too weak to give in, too strong to lose.
My heart is under arrest again, but I break loose.
My head is giving me life or death, but I can't choose.
I swear I'll never give in, I refuse.

Has someone taken your faith?
Its real, the pain you feel.
The life, the love you'd die to heal.
The hope that starts the broken hearts.

I'm no fool and I'm getting tired of starting again..

I wish it was a nightmare.

2011-04-11T04:15:00.005+08:00

I remember that fateful day. The day I realized people around me ain't who I thought they were. What exactly is trust? Is trust easily broken by the slightest setback? Have you ever wondered to yourself, what exactly do you mean when you put your trust in someone? Does trusting someone means no matter what happen under any circumstances you will choose to believe what he said than what others said or is it a word that means nothing?

Trusting someone requires you to put your faith in them. What happen when that someone betrays your trust? I believe many have come across that. I, myself am a victim of misplacing my trust. How foolish was I?

To [name]
I trusted you [name]. I always thought you trusted me too. I can't believe that minor misunderstanding made us drift so far apart. It's okay. I doubt I ever stand out in your eyes. That incident alone shows how little your faith was in me. It saddens me to see us become like this. It was just because of him. Never mind.
I wish you all the best. I still.... forget it.

Hey you.

2011-04-10T13:02:00.001+08:00

What happen to the good old times?

If only you knew it was you all along.

2011-02-19T08:14:00.002+08:00

All this time,
I was waiting for you.
Do you know that? Most probably not.
I am just not attractive nor handsome at all for you.
Why did I fall for you?

In a different crowd

2011-02-08T02:09:00.002+08:00

I wonder, how would I be feeling if I were to have a different crowd.

Would I be feeling out of place, fears of many not liking me or are already hating me?

nostalgia for my childhood days.

2011-01-25T18:47:00.001+08:00

Things I will never tell you ever.

2011-01-18T07:51:00.002+08:00

There are so many things I want to tell you but I am afraid you won't
be able to hear it anymore. It will only bring more pain than happiness.
Maybe I am just afraid of even the slightest risk of pain.
But to think of it, I am already in pain trying to forget you.
It's funny how something that did not even start can create such a painful emotion.

I've no idea how to really face you again without reigniting that feeling which
leads to the same painful feeling again after we depart.

4-5 times a week

I never thought I would fall this deep.

If you see me in the mirror.

2010-12-27T04:37:00.001+08:00

Life; A journey? I don't really know and I wish someone could explain it to me.

When I was a little boy, man I had so much fun. All the unexplainable joy that I went through.
It is something I never want to forget. However, all that fun was not long-lasting as I wished it would be. As a man and a human-being, We err. You will probably be wondering, what kind of mistake will you commit when you are just a boy? Lying? Talking back to our parents? Stealing perhaps? I wish mine was that simple. Shall continue another time.

2011

2010-12-24T00:43:00.002+08:00

YOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, Let me think. 2011 is approaching and I've no idea whether to be happy or sad or scared. Holidays are ending and neither do I know if it's a sad thing or happy thing. Holidays has never been so packed before. GKIDZ FTW. But..... It has taken up too much of my holidays that I have no idea to be sad or happy. But serving God is always happy. I need a jobbbbbbb. Needa sarpork myself. A year is ending... Nothing much done this year.... But yeh. Maybe next year will be a better year! AND OH YES MERRY CHRISTMASSSSSS. Sorry if you didn't receive any gifts from me. Reason 1. Too broke to get presents. Reason 2. Hardly any time to make cards and gifts. But I promise, I will do my best to write a card to all of you. Gonna enjoy holidays while it last........

Out of the box

2010-12-07T02:07:00.004+08:00

You have no idea how badly I want to hit the jackpot with my answer.
But I am afraid it's something I am not capable enough to handle.
I have nothing good on me and about me. Probably the reason why I failed to make a move. Courage, something I lack so much of.

Man, life is tough. Relationship is tougher. Without money, education, looks, you gonna fail at everything. And such a coincidence, I lack all.

We are young,

2010-12-06T03:09:00.002+08:00

It has been so long since I blogged. So many things happened.
A year will once again fly past us in 3 weeks time. What have I done this year?
Compared to last year. I am still quite the same. I never excelled in anything.
Academic-wise, Music-wise and even Gaming-wise! I wonder if this is me being greedy or it's the truth that I suck at everything for now.

2Months from now, I will be officially 16. Maybe it's still early to really excel in anything. Trusting in God, I believe He will lead me to where he wants me to be and it will always be prosperous.

Been in Gkidz for about 5 months now, I must say it's one of the greatest thing I ever did. It's so fun and I learned a lot. Great community, great kids and great time serving God. Gave my life colours. Serving God always bring you joy.

Now I ask, am I ready for next year? Well, no but with God all things are possible!

2010-11-22T14:04:00.000+08:00

So, can lighted matchstick be lighted again?

2010-11-20T06:39:00.002+08:00

I always believe that love starts with a spark and that spark? Attraction.
So, if love is like a matchstick and a spark created a fire but died halfway can it be still be lighted?

If yes, I am afraid I have just reignited a wrong matchstick. Or was it that in the beginning there were sparks but failed to light the matchstick until now? Or did I make that decision to love you unknowingly? All these are so confusing. Sigh.

Sigh, Emotion always get the better of me. It is often not shown in me except here.
Really pardon me from writing stuff like this. I bet some people are hating me or just can't stand who I am. But I have to say, this is the real me behind the wall of the world.

You'll see how miserable you are in the mirror.

2010-11-03T12:55:00.002+08:00

Each time I look into the mirror, I ask myself this "Who are you?"
I remember hearing this somewhere, "You are the real you when you are alone."
and yet here I am not knowing who I am. How ironic.
Fifteen years on earth and yet I still don't know who I am.
Definitely something is wrong with the way I lead my life.

Now, if someone were to ask me who I am.. How am I suppose to reply?
Should I say I am Alvin or should I say I don't know? I really don't know.
Maybe it's just me not wanting to admit that the miserable reflection in the mirror is me. How pathetic, so the real me is nothing but some piece of junk that even I dare not admit it's me.

There is so much inside me that are shown in my reflection. perhaps in many of you too.
But majority of us are not capable of expressing that part. Is it meant to be this way? I feel miserable each time I think of how I am unable to express that part of emotion. Even here, in my blog where it's suppose to be my safe little bubble. It sucks.

Coward in love

2010-09-10T00:44:00.001+08:00

I never knew perfection till,
I heard u speak and now it kills me,
just to hear u say the simple things.

Now waking up is hard to do,
sleeping's impossible to do
and everything is reminding me of you, what can I do?

I feel like I am such a coward. I don't even have the courage to express my feelings.
Always being what others expect me to be. It's tough.
I feel inferior/like an outcast among people around me. Acadamic-wise is enough to bring me down. Money-wise? Hah. There is no need for any explaination on this.
It sucks to feel like this.
I feel indebted to so many people. I want to be independent and not rely on others.
But things aren't really going the way I want them to.

I am sorry. Sorry I don't have the courage to tell you how important you are.

Tomorrow is not promised

2010-08-23T22:45:00.003+08:00

I wonder, why do people hate their life so much when they have a family, money, shelter & great friends who care. What could be worse than people who don't even have money or family? They still live their life don't they? Complain? It would be a lie if I say they don't. But their life really has something to complain. They got no family no money. But why do people with food, family, friends and shelter still complain? Look at your life and their life. You want food there is food. But have you realize that there are so many people out there begging and doing illegal stuff and selling tissue paper or working at old age just to feed themselves?

Tomorrow is not promised.
You might die tomorrow or even the next minute. Why live your life grumbling?
Why not think of a way to live your life so that when you die, the world cries for you.
Helen Keller once said "When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life so that when you die, The world cries and you rejoice". This is how you should live your life.

Yes I understand how our life is filled with troubles and problems. But its about how you sees it. Looking at it complain doesn't help. Think positive. You will be amazed at how your thinking affects the situation.

Love

2010-08-18T14:09:00.002+08:00

The world wants to make you think they know what love is.
But I'm telling you what true love is.
Love is not what you see in the movies.
Its not the ecstasy, its not what you see in that scene you know what I mean?
I´m telling you right now, true love is sacrifice.
Love is thinking about others before you think about yourself.
Love is selfless not selfish.
Love is God and God is love.
Love is when you lay down your life for another whether for your brother, your mother, your father or your sister. Its even laying down your life for your enemies.
That´s unthinkable but think about that. Love is true. Think.

Love is patient love is kind.
It does not envy it does not boast it is not proud.
It is not rude it is not self-seeking it is not easily angered it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects always trusts always hopes it always perseveres.
Love never fails. Love is everlasting its eternal it goes on and on it goes beyond time.
Love is the only thing that will last when you die.
But ask the question why? Why do you have love?

There is no greater love than this than he who lays down his life for his friends. Now are you willing to lay down your life for your friends?
You´re probably willing to lay down your life for your mother, your father or your best friends but are you willing to lay down your life for even those that hate you? I´m going to tell you who did that the definition of love is Jesus Christ.
He is love. The nails in his hands the thorns in his brow hanging on a cross for your sin my sins that is LOVE he died for you and me while we still hated him
That is love. God is true love and if you don´t know this love now is the time to know perfect love.

It's the same

2010-08-13T00:24:00.003+08:00

Lets begin with my phone. I don't know what went wrong. A lot of my friends claim that they sms-ed me but I NEVER GET ANY? Nevermind.
Now MSN. Zzzzz. Stupid msn keep DC-ing and I don't even know my sister got go close my MSN convos anot. ( after school like 4-5 I came back and not a single msn convo? that is weird )

Life has been the same. I realized I am quite temporary. So many people used to be like HEY YO WAZZZUP and we will keep talking and talking and obviously a goodnight and goodbye. Now, we talk but rarely it gets far. Not even a bye most of the time. People just go off without replying. And some ass has been annoying me for quite awhile, if you know who you are, please stop.

stupid post as I am tired. bye

2010-08-04T01:57:00.002+08:00

God bless us, everyone.
We're a broken people living under loaded gun.
And it can't be outfought,
It can't be outdone,
It can't be outmatched,
It can't be outrun,
No.

God save us, everyone.
Will we burn inside the fires of a thousand suns?
For the sins of our hand
The sins of our tongue,
The sins of our father,
The sins of our young.

How did you find me?

2010-08-04T01:19:00.004+08:00

I was searching, searching for something that can never be found via my own strength.
Something that I wanted for awhile. Well, you people reading must be wondering what is this thing but I won't be disclosing it to anyone. Well lets move on. This paragraph is just to distract people.

Well well, I recalled how me and you were last time. Doing lots of stuff together, having fun & taking care of each other but looking at us now... sigh
Now, we barely talk or if you think that a conversation less than five minutes is talking then fine. I believe we've been rather competitive about certain stuff but hey, don't let this friendship come to an end because of this eh?

Now back to my life.

I've been doing pretty much nothing for the past few weeks. I shall not complain how my life lacks spices but rather I shall name out a few stuff I decided to work on to spice up my life.

One, Work harder in school I suppose. Shouldn't be so much of a slacker.
Two, practice my bass. It might just be a hobby but playing a instrument makes me feel accomplished and I love music!
Three, update my blog more often. I usually update when I feel like there is a need to relief my stress. But now I shall start posting weird random stuff just so that it kills time. So if anyone who read my blog, be prepared to read rubbish.
Four, Sleep early. Yeah you must be wondering how the heck is this adding flavors to my life. When nothing is happening and I am bored and I've done all of the above, sleep kills time too.
Speaking of sleep, I shall hit the sack now. 1.50am and why the heck am I online for? Zz

My heart itches,

2010-07-20T02:55:00.003+08:00

What is this feeling?
I do not know.
Could it be love?
I do not know
Could it be an infatuation?
I do not know

I've seen too many people mistaking infatuation for love.
I for sure is one who has fallen for that before.
People don't fear love, they fear infatuation.
Infatuation is just temporary. Nothing more.
They are just afraid that this feeling would fade away.
And they will be left alone once again.
They fear that no one would hug them when they are cold,
No one would listen to them when they need someone
and no one to show them "love".

Its just a void everyone tries to find and they filled it up
without realizing the consequence to it.
I'll just wait & hope that you are the patch to the void.

Disgusted.

2010-07-16T18:19:00.002+08:00

I really am, disgusted by what you say.
So here I am dedicating this post to you.

First, how many times u want me to say its not because of that "misunderstanding"
Its absolutely not because of that misunderstanding. let me tell you its how
you reacted to that misunderstanding. Acting all emotional, bullshitting about me to others ( don't think i don't know )

I am very sick of talking to you. your all emotional acts just disgust me. seriously.
from that conversation you added me in with that someone who obviously scolded me
you know who. I saw exactly who you are then. I do not wish to hear anymore nonsense seriously. The you I know is not the you now. Don't say I changed or anything, you are the one who changed.

Goodbye.

Where are you?

2010-07-14T19:58:00.003+08:00

I felt this need, this uncontrollable desire to pour everything out.
Every single drop of emotions, truth and lies. But, Where is everybody?

It is always like this. Every time I need someone I can trust and someone who can listen to all my nonsense just disappear when I needed them.

I thought I was free, until all these nonsenses happened. Just wrong, so wrong.
I didn't know you are such a person. I thought you were Godly. Seems like I was wrong.

I shall not elaborate much, I need a break. I am just tired.

Face it,

2010-07-09T00:21:00.003+08:00

I hate how worthless and unimportant I am
I hate how people only talk to me when they are bored
I hate how I have to start conversations first
I hate how no one treasures me
I hate how I am only a substitute for others
I hate how no one think that I worth something
I hate how people sees me as only a boy and nothing more
I hate how no one put me as their most important friend even if they do it doesn't appear that way
I hate being treated LIKE a substitute when you people are bored.
I hate how much of my life have become.
I hate how all this is in the present and not the past.

This is life and I suppose I have to continue this journey.

Good intention gone bad.

2010-07-03T20:22:00.000+08:00

Why?

2010-06-24T21:50:00.001+08:00

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

You are back against me

2010-06-18T01:44:00.004+08:00

I think, I've made millions of wrong decisions in my life.
Decisions that made me so vulnerable now. What if me back then taken the other path?
I feel so insecure. Those decisions seem to have made many holes in my life.
Holes that can't be mend, wounds that can't be healed.

It is like once you made that choice, the door for Satan is always open.
You can push him out but he will always walk in with ease as long you are off-guard.
My life is in this situation now. Many doors are opened and unwanted stuff are trying to get in. It sucks when you can't lay back and relax and have to be on your toes at all time. Sad to say, some of them have already gotten into this "house".

I thought they were gone, for good. How wrong was I? Who/what to blame? My past choices. But I have to say, The past molded me to who I am now. But still, I miss that security. It has been a long time since I blogged and many things happened. Too many to name. But it doesn't matter. I am still fine. Trying to keep up with the world that I am lagging in. For those few that are concerned about me, I am fine (:

For all those that claim that I am super emotional, YOU ARE WRONG. Maybe I am for an hour or so, explaining why my posts are always so "emo". Don't get this post wrong, I am not being emotional now. I just feel that I needed to keep track of what is happening to myself and I doubt anyone would read this. Goodbye.

Intensity

2010-05-12T05:18:00.000+08:00

I saw the side of your face as you turned
There's no foolproof shield against departures I've learned

I am moving but you have long been gone
In opposite directions, we leave this route well worn

The hours faded to a memory I don't quite remember
And we're back as the two people who wait for every other

This lonely night of mine.

2010-05-08T02:15:00.002+08:00

In the dead of night, everything just seems so quiet.
Peace at last I thought to myself. How wrong was I?
As I roll myself into that bed of mine, everything changed.
Unwanted memories invaded my mind. I needed somewhere or someone to help me distress.
At such time, its almost impossible.

I miss the times when I get to hangout with one or perhaps two friends late in the night at the beach just talking thrash till the next morning. Those times where everyone have plenty of time in their hands. I've been seeking ideal stuff for too long. I am living in this imperfect world, what is ideal down here?

It pains me to see you, my friends one by one consumed by evil.
How happy were we back then? Very, well it is for me.
Sometimes I wonder, are you happy with your life now?

I want to be free,
From desolation and despair.
And I feel like everything I sew,
is being swept away.

2010-05-03T17:49:00.002+08:00

Far away,
the ship is taking me far away,
far away from my memories,
of the people who care if I live or die.

I just wanted to...

The last sunset (tm)

2010-04-25T21:22:00.002+08:00

...Looking into the horizon, as the golden mellowed sun
began to set below the glistening waters. It was as
though the sea was filled with the most perfectly cut
diamonds known to man. Light shimmered along the coast
as the sun went down. The clouds, partially lit, filled
the sky, leaving blotches of dark blue open spaces. Thick
and dense clouds decimated into sputters and light
streams that the sun highlighted with its vast shades of
golden light, shading the unlit clouds with a dark velvet
like colour. As the night came around, it was as though
life itself had stopped in its tracks. as though the earth
was not moving. The moon peaked down at the earth shyly,
covered by translucent clouds that moved ever so slightly
with the gentle breeze that accompanied the night.
there were no stars, or lights. the moon held center
stage of the sky as the night went on. As i felt a brush
of wind pass me, stroking my skin, i could taste the salt
from the sea in my mouth. As the taste lingered, i prayed
for another day like this but deep down in my heart i knew
that i would no longer be able to taste the same taste
or see the same beautiful sunset as i had experience today.
i knew that i could no longer be the boy i once was.
i knew that this was the last night that i would be able to
embrace that feeling of calm and ease.
i knew that i would no longer be able to feel the magic return
to this place, to me, once again.

25 Random things! maybe 20 or 19.

2010-04-15T02:03:00.001+08:00

1. I get super bored at times and i start searching up random old song, recently I found elvis presley song and crazy frog's song and now i am obsessed with them. dont ask me how.
2.Sometimes, I go wild and do crazy stuff. E.g omfreakinggoodness look at facebook photos the flower u know already.
3.I spam people on msn when i got nth better to do and to only wait for them say hi and close the chat. you might have experienced this.
4.i love beef.
5.I open facebook and sees nth new, close. open blog and sees nth new again close. and the cycle repeats for a few time.
6.Sometimes, I go out in the middle of the night around 3am walk awhile and finds it boring. 5min later i realise how stupid i am wasting my time and i will get a drink and go back home.
7.I can spend up to 1hour fidgeting with my look for formal or important events to only find it ugly and wash my hair and just leave the house.
8. 25 things is too much.
9.i find random games and i find hack for it and purposely create trouble for awhile and get myself banned.
10. i love to hang out anywhere near the sea/river/
11.bible is the only book i read.
12.random stuff after this is gonna get really random and stupid be prepared.
13.i love to play pool and bass.
14.while writing this, i was spamming joseph with crazy frogs.
15.I always wish that there is no such thing as curfew. although i myself do not have curfew but people around me can't hang out late!
16.Boomz
17.I close and open my msn messenger every 2min.
18.2min ago, I found this can which i at first thought its sardine. so i open up the can and mash it up good. then i think to myself. Yes, some nice sardine sandwich. so i mash and mash and mash. suddenly I realise its tuna. and i realised how stupid i am.
19.I just realised not long ago i got OCPD
20.Forget it. 25 is too many.

If all you want is attention,

2010-04-09T22:58:00.002+08:00

If all you want is attention, take it.
I need no such attention.
Neither do I have to compete with you for that.
Up till now you still seek attention,
Still see others as below you.

I see no point in having all those attention.
You are shallow.
Yet till now you still can't identify your problem.
Despite many hints. You treat it as a joke.

You've changed, too much.
Who are you again?
You are no longer the one I know.

Wish I've never ever met you at all

2010-04-07T06:42:00.001+08:00

It has been 4months.

2010-03-31T14:14:00.004+08:00

Maybe, maybe I don't need you at all.
Wishing that you will notice me.
But, It has been 4months.
Yet you know almost nothing about me.

Its time you disappear.
Its time I fly off.
Maybe, just maybe I deserve more than all these.

But up till now,
You still do not know its you.

But, knowing it doesn't make a difference.

OMG,

2010-03-22T23:02:00.001+08:00

Oh dear, I am in such terrible pain man.
First, I sprained my leg and now my back is having such a serious ache.
I keep feeling so damn cold, whenever it hurts my body starts feeling super cold.
Cold like those you get when you are having a fever. ahhhhhhhhhh

Second, I am dying of boredom. Everything is lifted off my mind to the point I am bored. No one to go out with or play with ahhhhhhhh.

Third, School sucks, I bet tomorrow when I return school I will say goodbye to my hair.

ahhhhhhhhhhh

Who?

2010-03-15T00:49:00.003+08:00

Who will be there when I needed someone
to comfort me, to hear my sorrows,
to understand me & talk to me?

Sigh.

Why are people around me so unreal,
is it just me being too emotional or
its you?

The timing for everything is just wrong
wrong person, wrong time.

I, am going back to my safe, protected,
homely world. Where nothing can ever
hurt me. But where is this place?

Sigh.

disappointment

2010-03-14T00:34:00.003+08:00

It used to be colourful, but now

Trusted you, believed everything you've said
And you abused the trust I put in you.
For now I know not who to trust.
Seeing you like this,
Makes me so afraid.

What are friends? What is brother?
I know not anymore.
For now I see you in a different light
You are not who I know anymore.
How am I gonna face the world anymore?

How I wish I could live in this world without
worries & fear.

2010-03-13T03:55:00.002+08:00

Very much concern about you

Always thinking of you here & there but

Never do you think of me or ask of me

Even so, I still hang on but why?

Sigh at such,

Such complicated problems

Ain't for me

You,

2010-03-04T22:02:00.003+08:00

I wish,
I am the red in the rose, the flowers on the blankets on your bedroom floor.
I wish,
I am the gray in the ghost that hides with your clothes behind your closet door.
I wish
I am the green in the grass that bends back from underneath your feet.
I wish
I am the blue in your back alley view where the horizon and the rooftops meet.

2010-03-01T00:10:00.002+08:00

I see my life going down. I just don't know what to do.
History is repeating itself and I don't want that to happen.
I need someone. Someone close, someone to guide me. Before I
fall into darkness.

It wasn't long before I step into the city of light.
But it might be soon before I step out of the light.
Such life, what to do? No, I don't want that to happen.
I am happy with my life right now but something is still amiss.
Sigh. Such complication.

Life this few days or weeks have been kinda bad. I'm rotting, decaying
@ home. I feel so.... alone. I wish something will just happen.
I really got nothing to blog about my life. It is always the same.
Wake up, school, home , sleep.

What happened to the interesting life of mine?
What is to come? sigh

2010-02-27T23:15:00.015+08:00

Such life, is it for us?
Such pain, is it for us?
nevertheless we still have to carry on
A life without pain
Is like money without value

Value this life
You never know when it's over
For the end will never be known
Live your life so that
When you die, the world cries

Suffering are the pathway to blessing
There are no shortcuts to heaven
only to hell
Seek his face my friends,
For victory in your life you need God

When will this pain & suffering go away

Falling

2010-02-17T22:45:00.002+08:00

I'm ready to fall
I'm ready to crawl
On my knees to know it all
I'm ready to heal
I'm ready to feel

Sigh

2010-02-17T14:09:00.007+08:00

Life is a long way to go. We never get to see the end, for now

Wonderfully made creatures with such intelligence
But used in so many ways
Once meant to be good but now..
Why do these creatures corrupt themselves?

So many questions about ourselves
yet non are answered
Why? What? How? When? Where?
yet the answer lies deep down in your heart

Deep down are the answers we never want to hear
Answers that lead you into hatred, jealousy
anger and sadness

Oh wonderful creatures,
Open up your eyes and see
That this world is a deception
It is bringing you to your own demise.

A wonderful place is waiting for you
A place where everything is perfect
and the truth.

It is worth the wait oh creatures.

2010-02-09T05:05:00.003+08:00

Those lips that Love's own hand did make
Breathed forth the sound that said 'I hate'
To me that languish'd for her sake;
But when she saw my woeful state
Straight in her heart did mercy come,
Chiding that tongue that ever sweet
Was used in giving gentle doom,
And taught it thus anew to greet:
'I hate' she alter'd with an end,
That follow'd it as gentle day
Doth follow night, who like a fiend
From heaven to hell is flown away;
'I hate' from hate away she threw,
And saved my life, saying 'not you.'
–William Shakespeare

I just love this. So yeah.
Just posting for fun I guess...
pardon me i am just so addicted to Shakespeare

I'm OFFICIALLY 15!
AND NO. I am still not happy with that age number.
I shall not elaborate why. Gonna waste your time reading anyw!
hahahah!

LONDON CHOCOLATE ROLL

2010-02-08T18:04:00.003+08:00

DO YOU PEOPLE KNOW HOW NICE THE LONDON CHOCOLATE ROLL IS ?!?
Once you tried it, you"ll get addicted to it. I MEAN SERIOUS.
I ate away like 20 of them already. 20! AT ONE SHOT.

It is irresistible and unbelievably nice.
Okay wait. I realize something. It is London pandan roll.
not chocolate flavor. But THAT IS STILL NICE. *still same brand as chocolate roll"

Yesterday after service, went out with Benson, Solomon, Bryan, Mavis & Vanessa.
THEY got me this Topman shirt and they actually doodle on it!
The front says "Hi I am Alvin" and a you know those funny show the "ahbengs"
put the 2 heart and one arrow shoot through one!? And the back is...........
KICK ME and their blessing. It is very nice but very.. hmm how to put it?
Dangerous I will say. Imagine some naughty kids or "bengs and lians"
walk over kick me how? Must add disclaimer. or add KICK ME NOT.

Overall the whole thing is great for me. You guys might think we only sat down and play boring games or v sian that kind of stuff but to me not at all. Spending some time with you people is a great thing already. Well I am one which prefer spending time with great people instead of some grand celebration anyw (:

2 years and 5hour 44mins more from now.

EDIT:PS: it is PANDAN FLAVOR. For those who said london chocolate roll sucks.
maybe teh chocolate one sucks. but pandan one is nice!

It is not a sin to be tempted

2010-02-01T23:13:00.002+08:00

From Sunday sermon.

It is never a sin to be tempted
But it is a sin to give in to temptation

What exactly do we have to do when we are tempted?
There are two things you can do.

1-Fight!
What exactly does it mean to fight?
Pray & tell Satan to go away.
Resist the devil and he will flee from you.

2-Flee!
When exactly do we flee?
E.g 1 = anything related to sex.
but it doesn't apply only on that.
We can also flee from our source of sins.
sources like computer and etc.

Ways to triumph over temptation.
-Drive out self-satisfaction
Rely on God's Word
Live on God's word instead of the
things that this world gives. God's
stuff is so much better than earth's
stuff. Don't try to satisfy yourself.
Satisfy God. Do stuff that satisfy God,
like quiet time!
-Dethrone Self-Service
Review our worship

-Dump self-significance
Realise our worth

Some question that was asked during the sermon

1.When during the week are you tempted the most?

2.What time of the day are you tempted?

3.Where are you when you are tempted the most?

4.Who are you with when you are tempted the most?

5.What type of sins are you tempted to commit the most?

6.How do you feel right before you sin?

7.Why does this sin give you what you want?

8.What could you do to break this pattern?

Fight and flee from all these sins and
don't be foolish and run into them. I do
not have the answer to whatever your question
in this post cause the answer
lies in God and yourself, not me.

2010-01-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

My brothers and sisters
what do you beget from sins?
eternal death

Why do we give in to sins
but hardly to God?

Why do we run to sins
But never do we run towards God?

Why do we find it so hard to abandon sins
But so easy to abandon and run away from God?

simple, we've never placed God as our purpose in life
nor as our priority

The blessing we can receive from God is so much greater than
that pleasure or whatever you get from sinning. God's
plan is so great and filled with unlimited blessing
that you can enjoy it forever but you simply choose
sin over God's plan.

All of us are going through major changes in our lives
and some dislike it. But remember, God is molding you.
We are like going through pregnancy. We are enduring
the pain and the hardship to know that at the end,
something is born. We are right now in that period of
pregnancy. The greater the outcome, the longer the hardship.

Turn back now before you are completely blinded by darkness.
You would really prefer God's love instead of God's wrath.

Crumbling Pillars?

2010-01-30T14:37:00.009+08:00

All you my brothers
Pillars of this cell
As one we grow
As one we fall
Anger, Pride, Fame, Recognition
What does it matter
As compared to love
Between you and me
Every lie you say
Every misdeed you do
Every time you flare up
You gripped my heart
Left in your hands
The day you were born in Christ
But why
Why are you doing this
The lord died on the cross
So that you could love
But your actions
They don’t seem to show
And to my Brother
The road to fame
It seems to you
A very promising one
But I tell you
The road to death
Is what that is
Tears uncontrollably roll down
To see your loved one
Trudge in that quicksand
Unaware of coming danger
Our hand are stretched forth
Waiting for the time
The time you turn back
And reach forth to us
I do hope you all realise
Whatever we all did
It’s crumbling the pillars
Corroding away our efforts
To love those around
A house united on the front
But crumbling on the inside
Will never succeed
But a house united in the inside
Though tattered on the outside
Will tide through times
Of hardship and discipline
With joy and comfort
For God’s love abounds
What I really wish for:
To always be A PART,
And never be APART

Crumbling Pillars? ( Part 2)

2010-01-30T14:28:00.012+08:00

It’s a New Year whereby flowerbeds should be blooming and children running around, enjoying the summer sun- perfect scenes of bliss and joy everywhere. But dark clouds seemed to be looming over us all in this season. Problems after problems, events after events, everyone is worn out physically and mentally, but not spiritually I believe. Seriously speaking, I am very disappointed in our behaviour and our attitude. Personally I confess, well I have not been really active among the cell lately but I promise to change and really bond with you all once again. I look at the way we are handling things, the way we are communicating and it just saddens me to say it seems as if we are really dead. Nothing is improving, in fact things are just getting worse for some of us. Can we really get back to what we used to be and move on from there? I think to myself, all the sleepless nights. What bothers me the most is that we are not opening up to one another and doing what god is telling us to do. Forget about Project X if we cannot even consolidate our own cell brothers and sisters. How do we even go out when we ourselves are not even united as one. God says love your neighbour as yourself and we are already on the verge of giving up loving our spiritual family. This is not targeted at anyone in specific but to all of you. Complaining and grumbling, what we do more nowadays. It is understandable that we all have our own problems and here comes another problem. We feel tired and after so many rounds of effort put in. Nothing is happening and we start to lose hope. But I want to ask you, what does love mean? Love is when you put others before yourself and care for another’s interest first. It’s about commitment. Don’t say I want to lead a cell or rise up to a certain position when we cannot even settle our own problems.

To you, my brother I ask. Do you remember the day you and I talked in Gameslab around dinner time? Do you remember what I say. What I might say after this might sound real disheartening to you but my aim is that you learn and move on from it, not wallow in regret or self-pity. Stand up and be a real man. Move on. Emotions and pride get the better of you and you lose control, only to regret and find your soul in tatters later. This has been said to you many times, but this is the last time I will be saying this to you. I hope you really take it to heart and not waste your time off reading this. Pride is something that is a stronghold in your life. You cannot take it when someone treats you in a despising manner and that urge to settle things take over. It is hard I would say but there is God for you. Why take things upon yourself and just for that moment of wrath and fury do something that might cause you more trouble in the end. God told us to be humble and to love those around us. So live your life through God and for God and you will see God miracles in your life. Whenever things happen, seek god first and turn away. Don’t think it is hum-ji or what. It is being smart and most importantly, following God instruction to you. Those people who call you names or what, bless them that they may come to know the great God you know one day. A friend made is always better than an enemy made. I really want to help you, but sometimes I just look at you and there is this stone barrier around your heart. Nothing gets in and nothings get out to us. There is nothing we can do if you keep to yourself. In the end , you will just get hurt emotionally and mentally. Everytime you get hurt or something happens in life. We all worry, you are our brother and we are committed to help you grow. We move as one. When you fall, we fall too. When you cry, our hearts ache too. So help us to help you. We see changes in you already so keep it up, my Brother. Let us all walk the rest of our lives with God together.

And to you my brothers, be it in the future or present. Gaining fame and recognition through gangs and societies is something you might feel it is cool. I tell you here and now, stop this, pardon me , F***ing idea of yours now. Dun even let that get to your head if it has not started. You think those means of rising through the ranks is something you can mess with. Think again. Getting whacked regularly, changing GFs like clothes and paying for meals – you think this is going to get you recognition. Yea. You get recognition, recognition as a mobile atm and punching bag. You think they treat you as like good friends and brothers but you try it yourself. Get yourself into deep shit trouble like a gang fight. Then see if they are willing to fight for you. You think being in a gang is so high and mighty. Have you thought of those who care for you, your parents, your friends and God? What happens if something happen to you. Are you prepared to get caught by the police in a gang fight or smoking? Are you willing or are you able to take a knife and hack someone? Dun just talk talk i hack you then you know, this kind of bullshit. Can you really do it? I am begging you, stop before it is too late. How broken would you parent be, they slog their ass off to raise you up only to see you falling into murky waters? You think it is fun having all this friends. But look back all this time, spending so much time together. what exactly have you learned. Lying? Smoking? Drinking? Fighting? Nothing? If you feel that spending time with your friends would bring you fame, What you spending time with the almighty God bring? Your Heart is pure, I sincerely believe in that. It is just that you are blinded and heading in the wrong highway and not the highway of God. The next u-turn Exit is now, it’s your choice. I know it’s hard to change immediately but as long as you change we will be with you, waiting for you to turn back. God is waiting for you too. Please don’t carry on till the last day of your life and you look back. What have I done all my life besides wasting it away.

And to you my brother, whom ever it may concern. Life in the New Year might suck for you currently and you feel you are being neglected and not being where you should be, where you feel you can be of a greater use but I say to you. God says he has plans for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. So fret not, wherever you may be or wherever you are, that is god’s plans for you. So shine wherever you may be, for that is God’s place for you and he will guide you along. Do not let the spirit of rejection or depression affect you. I feel for you but there is nothing much I can do for you. Seek God and ask him what his purpose was for you in wherever you are. We are but humans , God sees the whole picture and end in mind. Keep faith and press on. Sometimes in life, we feel like giving up . We have put in so much effort but nothing is being changed. Well, it maybe be due to the fact that the time is not ripe yet, but be assured God is working among us. We have problems of our own but often you set aside your problems and help out the rest first, going out of your norm to comfort others, I applaud you for that. But over time, you are worn out with scars, scars from your battle and other’s battles. Others have achieved victory but your battles are not over but they are in distant lands, never knowing when they may be a threat again. It’s time to take a rest and face your battles, this time you are the general and we your officers, you have helped us and now we want to help you face all this. You are not alone, Brother. You can do it. JIAYOU!!!

Finally, some more brothers of mine, life has not been smooth for you too. Overwhelming studies and family circumstances. Fine young men, writers, thinkers and someone who is really matured, impacting my life, but no one is perfect, you have your own addictions too and worldly temptations do affect you too. Well, most of us have been through that stage and we know how hard it is like to stop. It’s not something that you snap your fingers and it’s gone forever. It requires self-discipline and perseverance. Discipline was never a joy to begin with, be it detentions or caning. Self-discipline is much harder than that. It’s about doing the right things at the right time even when there is no one around. The devil tempts you time and time again. You resist and you fight back, but over time the fight get harder and the devil seems to get stronger and stronger and you give in. I shall be frank. We are all guys. If you tell me a guy has never masturbate or watch porn in his whole life, only one guy has done that and he is god. Guys have diff temptations be it gambling, smoking or sexual sins. And it is really hard for us to get rid of this temptations.But don’t give yourself excuses or reasons, It’s something you have to face before it snowballs in to something worse, Drug addict or compulsive gambler or even a rapist. I don’t want to see any of my brothers on that path. You may say it is within control and stuff like that. But that’s bullshit and you know it. There has to be a reason for all this things you are doing. Find out the root of the problem and and take it to God. Surrender it to him. This does not mean, oh I have surrendered it to God, now anything that happens is God’s problem, not mine. No. That is not the case, when you surrender the problem to God, it means that you acknowledged his power over your life believing that God has a way out for you and you persevere through these temptations because now you are not alone. God is fighting alongside with you and you will emerge victorious. May God be with all of you in your fight against temptations.

Well I have wrote quite an amount this time and I hope that all my brothers who has read this post would have been touched by God and really change for the better. I am really praying for that. Lets us all get out of this crumbling situation and reinforced one another’s pillars again. Let us tide through this time of hardship together with faith, perseverance and love for one another. To those you have read this post. I hope God has touched you in some way or another too. God bless all of you and may everyone enjoy God’s blessings in this year of multiplication.
Let us forget the past and move on from here, for the multitudes, for God.

2010-01-29T22:53:00.002+08:00

I Dream

I dream of a world
Free of peace
where people have been consumed by hate
that is, to say the least.

It is a corrupt world
one you have not seen
one that tears itself apart
with its inhabitants, ever so unclean.

A world of jealousy and Pride
Lust, Greed
A world of Wrath and sin
A one Where everyone bleeds

Pain and suffering
is all around
Justice is corrupt
a world where Hope for the Weak
cannot be found

However as i wake up and i come to see
the world we live in
might just come to be
The one i have dreamed of over and over,
reveal itself
right in front of me

My friends, we are heading into
Our own demise
at the rate we are going
it could happen in the blink of an eye

So lets all play our Part
to stop this from happening
pass this message along
Be Kind. And start smiling(:

(yes i know the post is like shit today but a good poem is hard to come by, from me at least(:)

2010-01-28T23:52:00.002+08:00

My Brother

What you have done today
It truly saddens me
to see someone such as yourself
get so Angry

Over something like that
why?
Because he wronged himself?
or was it sickening to listen to him lie.

regardless the answer
i do not care
Has your father not, and i speak the truth
told you to love your neighbours
as he loves you?

So i say this to you now,
look over your heart again tonight,
and know that what you have done
is simply not right.

And to you,
the one who disregards us
as your brothers in christ

Shame on you
What you've done
Does what we offer, Not suffice?

I hope you see
how empty
the path you walk now
turns out to be

I am not asking for you
to change your mind
to just turn right round
and to be ever so blind.

i want you to see,
how great a life
with Jesus Christ
really can be

i am not asking for change right now
or anytime soon as a matter of fact
i just want you to choose wisely
before your life goes flat.

What on earth are we here for?

2010-01-28T22:15:00.003+08:00

It All Starts with God
For everything, absolutely everything,
above and below, visible and invisible,...
everything got started in him and
finds its purpose in him.

It's not about you.
The purpose of life is far greater than your own personal
fulfillment, your peace of mind, or even your happiness. It's far
greater than your family, your career, or even your wildest dreams
and ambitions. If you want to know why you were placed on this
planet, you must begin with God. You were born by his purpose.
The search for this purpose of life has puzzled people for
thousands of years. That's because we typically being at the
wrong starting point---ourselves. We ask self-centered questions
like What do I want to be? What should I do with my life? What
are my goals, my ambitions, my dreams for my future? But
focusing on ourselves will never reveal our life's purpose. The
Bible says, "It is God who directs the lives of his creatures; everyone's life is in his power"

Many popular books, movies, and seminars tell you, you won't discover your life's meaning by looking withing yourself. You've probably tried that already. You didn't
create yourself, so there is no way you can tell yourself what you were created for!
If I give you something you had never seen or use before, you wouldn't know its purpose or function. Only the creator or the owner's manual could reveal its purpose.

You were made by God and for God---and until you understand that, life will never make sense. The easiest way to discover the purpose of life is to ask the creator, which is God.

Yet something is still troubling me deep within

2010-01-28T05:14:00.003+08:00

Very strange feeling this is.
A feeling so troublesome
Never felt like this before
And......
Something is stirring up inside of me
Something that mere words cannot define.
Ah, Maybe you can define it but w/e

So near yet so far.
Once a week is never enough.
How hard is it to go for
Someone or something impossible.
Oh never mind.

A letter of appreciation.

2010-01-28T05:00:00.003+08:00

You people will be wondering who this is to
and I will tell you.
It is for God.

I think back of my life and I realised how
God transformed and saved a
wretch like me. Provided me love and care
and removed the loneliness from my life.
Blessed me with great people around.
I can never imagine where I will be or
what I will become without God in my life
O'Lord Jesus christ. I thank you for saving
me. Provided for me and freedom from sin.
This might not be some letter of great phrases
and stuff like that. But it is genuine.

Thank you Lord.

hmm.?

2010-01-26T02:32:00.000+08:00

Vrooooooooooooom. Time passed so quickly
All I can think of is....
Nothing or is it?
Am so lost but what can I do?
Silently wait and
Slowly rot
Ahahahahaha and lost aren't you?

Screwed.

2010-01-25T23:37:00.002+08:00

Something that shouldn't come at all came back or should I say an emotion.
It hasn't been in my life for quite awhile and all of a sudden it came back.
I need to get rid of before I sink deeper into it.

Looks like finally something is happening to me gah.
Ouch, I don't wanna feel.
Vexed over it gah.
Everyone wants it but not for me now.

Either this is for real or just some crap
time will tell but I know the outcome.

this is a crap post just ignore. yeah

A great day at ECP

2010-01-25T02:19:00.003+08:00

I am growing so attached to ECP.
I can't help it. So many memories
and today it just added in more.
I can't help but shed tears
while I think back of my life
What a wasted childhood.

Picture this, You & your loved
ones go to the beach or have a
picnic near the beach isn't it
the ideal thing to do? What
could be better then spending
time with your loved ones at
the beach? Unfortunately I am
one which never had the chance
to experience that warmth.

Today I managed to be part of this
celebration which really give me
the warmth and stuff like that
even though the main character
is not me. I can't help but
really think back and cry.
Why is my childhood like that?
Why can't I have this ideal
picnic by the beach or fly kite
or anything like that ?
Yeah I know what you people
are thinking. *certain people*
crying is gay and stuff like that
Everyone have their own weak spot
and I just cant help it but blog this

This could be one of the only past I will ever post on the blog
And yeah thanks to whoever reading my
crappy post yeah.

I need some motivation!

2010-01-24T00:01:00.002+08:00

What else can I say? YAY SUNDAY.
Things have been pretty well for
now I guess. School started and
everybody's problem is surfacing
it shouldn't be this way! But I
guess God is putting our faith
to test. -When the night seems
to be the darkest, it means that
the sun will soon rise up! Press on!
We are going through pain and trial
to give birth into something marvelous
something God has planned already for us
I can't wait for later man! Like FINALLY
it is Sunday! A great day for fun and
entertainment. Do you people need some
enjoyment? If yes, I shall give you
the place full of craps and it is dam
funny. borntobeyourtaoeh.blogspot.com
a place u must visit! Goodbye peeps.
heehee.

Attention of people.

2010-01-21T15:34:00.002+08:00

Hellos! I shall start now! Shall not drag anymore.
What else can I say? Everyone desire for attention.
Attention of people. Can you imagine what people
will do to get that mere attention from you?
Why? Why do people seek attention so much?
Mainly due to the reason of being self-conscious.
We care too much how other people think of us.
It is human's nature that we seek attention.
Think back or look at babies or young kids
They cry and scream and what is it for? Attention.
Why do US even when we grow up still seek attention?
this is a trick question go look up and you will
realised I already said why.

Okay continue from here. Do you people realized
what are the consequences of just trying to do
some funny stuff to seek attention?
1. It can demoralize the people around you.
Why you ask? people will be so sad like
why is this happening to him and not me?
just by being someone you are not or
pretending something that is not happening
to you at all to you.
2. You are just living in self-denial.
Why are you trying so hard to be someone
you are not? Slowly after "acting" for
quite awhile you believe that u are really
that person when you are not.
3.How many lies have you told to be in this "you"?
How many times did u lied when u are trying to be
someone you are not? How many times have u been
close to being expose and quickly make up a lie
to cover up for it?
4.You may lose friends.
When people realised that you are trying be be
someone you are not they may just get pissed
at your behavior and that is goodbye.

This is different from being unable to open up
If you do it for the sake of having friends, just be yourself
Friends accept who you are. If they don't, they are not your
friend at all. That its for now. Bye!

Better post more to bring attention away from the previous post

2010-01-21T01:24:00.001+08:00

Quote of the day
to every success there is a failure,
to every failure there is a lesson learned,
and to every lesson learned there is a better person.

I better stop posting weird stuff to scare Benson already.
(9:01 PM) Benson: your video is incredibly disturbing.
(9:18 PM) Alvin`: LOL
(9:19 PM) Benson: i am put off taking RISks for people.

This is why I said WATCH AT YOUR OWN RISK!
But still you people should watch! I shall not elaborate much.
I can't wait for Friday to come. Although it is just the romans
talk, but I got this feeling stirring inside of me right now
making me hunger for that. Maybe it is due to the boring days
I am going through right now or maybe God is at work! Haha.
I really need to start looking forward to school now..
or the bad habit might just come back. My fuel is running out
already. I need something to keep me going to school.
I need to do well this year. Can't go back to the old ways..
Temptations are slowly coming back and I am afraid I will
succumb into temptations once again. I need to make the
Right choices. Well I shall get going now, goodbye.
Oh no I feel so emo posting this. LOL ok ciaos.

HI! I AM SUPER BORED!

2010-01-20T19:41:00.000+08:00

This is a video which is hilarious and omgoodnesswtheckbbq.
Watch at your own risk
This is a parody of the music video three by britney spears.
Really you guys should watch, at your own risk. But first,
I want to salute those people who acted in that video.
They are really out to make us laugh and look at the
stuff they do. Do any of you dare to do that?
I admit it is kinda wrong.. but it is funny!
You guys should watch but watch at your own risk
notice how i focus on "watch at your own risk"?
for safety reasons. LOL.
Enjoy!

When you were born

2010-01-20T14:30:00.000+08:00

when you were born,
you cried and the world rejoices.
live your life so that when you die,
the world cries and you rejoice.

Some of you might find this familiar as
I have shared this on Facebook before
but I feel that I should post on my blog
and therefore increasing chance that
more people will get to know this
and got inspired by this to do better.
Now.... I am like super free.
Anyone bored and wanna hang out or smth?
GET ME OUTTA MY HOUSE I WILL LOVE YOU.
or if you don't want the love also can
BUT JUST GET ME OUT OF MY HOUSE
I shall turn in now. getting late.
Bye and thanks for reading such a stupid post

What a day to blog

2010-01-20T11:03:00.000+08:00

What else can i say? a "wonderful" day to blog?
Like what Joshua said he look forward to Sunday
and Friday which is happening to me too. Everyday
is getting more and more boring. AND OH YEAH
I got my contact lens! quite a hassle to put
them on tho. If only my eyesight is perfect.
Oh well. And Mavis can be so cunning... or
smart < she put it this way so yeah.
I finally understood Solomon's meaning of
You better be prepared. Took me quite
awhile to guess Mavis's favorite colour
and in the end.... I still have yet to get
the answer! Well pray for me for my school
days. Bye!

There is calmness to a life lived
in gratitude, a quiet joy.

Alvin

SPICE, I NEED SOME SPICE IN LIFE

2010-01-19T06:28:00.000+08:00

I am utterly disappointed with my life.
It is super super boring. I believe quite a few
of you are feeling this way. But life isn't
just about having fun. We should all rise
up and be somebody if we are nobody.
Put aside all hatred and forgive everyone
and we will be able to enjoy peace.
How can we be at peace if we keep the
hatred in our mind? With hatred of that
person in our head, all we can think of
is all the negative things about him.
I got no idea why i am posting this.
But if you have someone whom you
have yet to forgive in your heart,
forgive him/her.

A brand new start?

2010-01-18T12:03:00.000+08:00

WARNING. BORING AND LAME POST ALERT
This is probably one of the most shocking things that you guys will realize.
I BLOGGED. HOW..... weird is that.
I decided that instead of wasting my time away sitting in front of the computer doing nothing, i mean NOTHING.
I should start to do something more interesting.
Quite reluctant to blog at first but after spending like quite sometime to find something to do, I ended up with nothing.
SO... I am stuck with blogging. I doubt my blog will be as interesting as other blogs you have read.
My life is getting from bad to worse. School's boring after school is even more boring.
Since I made a blog i should keep it alive.
BUT FIRST, FOR THE PEOPLE WHO KNOW ME, PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR LINK SO I CAN LINK YOU. I"ll try not to do a post like "today went school, school was fun. after school meet so and so and then after that bus home the end."
I TRY NOT TO. I"ll try and find something.... something interesting to blog everyday.
*hint* make my life interesting then what you people will be able to read will be interesting. well THAT is that. quite hard to think of something to blog and i find this post extremely.. boring.
Alvin